Sunday, March 11, 2012

Alright,

Well if you haven't figured it out by now....I'm a total procrastinator.  My once a week blog is almost once a month now.  I'M SORRY Y'ALL!!  Life has just been whipping my tail these days and making things difficult.  So......grab your glass of water cuz ...well.....if that's all I'm drinking you better not be reading this while holding a Pepsi/coke/cola/pop/soda!!!

So.....first things first.....I have lost 10 pounds!  Now that was as of 2 Saturdays ago....I haven't weighed in since then....I'm too scurred!

The last 2 weeks have been real difficult for me.  My motivation/inspiration has been close to nothing.  Some personal issues going on and I haven't been relying on my Savior as though my life depends on it.  So I was kind of in a sad stormy funk.   So my workout days happened...but I didn't push as hard as I should have and my food choices weren't the best.  No I didn't stuff my face or over eat.....I just picked the wrong things to eat. One big change is when you are used to working out with someone and then they are gone........there's no one to encourage you or push you.........well except yourself.  And I dunno about y'all...but I never trust myself!!!   My lovely friend was on vacation last week so I didn't have her at my workout beck and call either. 

Now....let me tell you about my friend.  For her privacy I am going to just call her Keyonce........cuz A) that's her nickname and B) her name starts with K and she LOVES LOVES LOVES Beyonce.  I love this girl to the moon and back.  I am a firm believer God puts certain people in our lives at certain times for a reason.  Its up to Him to decide how long he blesses us with those people.......so I tend to hold tight to the ones I love....(maybe too tight??  Suffocation?? Just ask my husband)  Any who.......my friend is "laughing her butt off" right along side me.  Of course I think she is crazy because my goal is actually to be what her size is now....but I support her like she is supporting me.  She has waaaay better discipline than I do and her diet/work out regimen is way harder than mine.  She helps push me and supports me every day.  We work together so having her everyday really spoils me.  Since she was on vacay last week....my soul was sad too.  We try to keep each other smiling and encourage each other......so that was one reason I was down.

But today I am feeling great!!!  I am definitely one of those people...that when Spring/Fall is around the corner.....my soul jumps for joy and I get very energetic.  I had THE BEST Sunday with my gorgeous today and I'm just very thankful for these moments God gives us.  I love children and want to have as many as I can.......but I can't lie....I am enjoying my time with just my husband and me.  This Spring and Summer is going to be the best we've ever had and since I'm slimming down and making life changes........it can only be better than I'm imagining.  He's doing his thing and working out and does boxing......He really is a wonder to watch. I don't think there is anything that man cant do. 

Since the weather is warming up (well...until Mother Nature decides to throw us an April snow storm) I have been walking on my lunch break.  That is such a great feeling!  I get a little SEVENDUST on my mp3 player and walk as far  and as fast as i can in 15 minutes and then walk back.  Now....i may not look as cute as I did when i started my day....but if you still look cute after your workout....then you didn't work hard enough.  And now that the Sun loves us enough to stay out longer...i can come home and walk farther and longer.  EXTRA WORKOUTS MEAN MORE RESULTS!! 

I still haven't had any soda for a month.  THAT IS A HUGE ACCOMPLISHMENT FOR ME!!  If it weren't for God's strength that only He can give me....I would never be able to do it.  Once Summer comes along and BBQ season is in full swing......the temptation will increase.....but I'm up for the challenge! 

Folks at work are super nice and are telling me they can already see a difference in my weight.  I hope they're not just being nice and trying to make me feel good.  It does make me feel good but I need the truth!  They see me everyday so I'm trusting them. 

OH...........and yesterday I got my hair did.........I'm not saying what color cuz I want some folks to be surprised tomorrow......but I love it.....my gorgeous is crazy about it.......and I cant lie....it has given me a boost of confidence.  I'm not a girly girl by any means....I actually joke with my friends that I need to take a "REAL GIRL" boot camp......but I do believe a pampering is needed for one's self every once and a while.


So....here we are.....1 month down.....11 to go.  1 year is what I've given myself to reach my goal weight....but some of the food/work out changes will be with me the rest of my life.   I am thankful for the changes that have already been made and the progress I've reached...but I have a long hard road to go...........but I can do this.....ONLY through Christ who strengthens me!

*BOOM*

Sunday, February 19, 2012

         I wanted to start this blog 2 weeks ago, so I would have 1 blog per week but as always...I had run into some technical difficulties.  I am in no way, shape, or form Internet or computer savvy. 

         
          To start things off, many of you reading this know me, but maybe not to the degree you are about to know me.  I am 26 going on 21 years old.  I say that because I definitely don't feel like I'm just a few years from 30.  I steel feel like a teenager most of the time.  I feel young because I try to laugh as much as possible.  I thoroughly believe one of the main reasons the Good Lord put me on this earth was to encourage others and keep folks smiling.  I crack jokes all the time and most of that time...the jokes are about myself.  I've become quite good at it.........but.....its no bueno for my soul.  I am married to a gorgeous Latino man......(yeah you guessed it...he's the Mexican...I am not)  I am pretty sure God just ran out of tan paint when he knitted me in my mother's womb because I love all that is Mexican.  From the food, culture, language, land, ....and my husband.  He is my rock and support system. He is the one who has challenged me to step up and take care of myself. We have been together almost 9 years and married almost 1.   I thank God everyday for that man. 

         I have always struggled with my weight.  But even when I say that, I cringe.   I look at pictures of myself when I was younger, you know when all girls think they're fat, or when all girls make each other feel like they're fat.  AND I WASN'T FAT!!  I wasted many years thinking that.  However , now, I am fat.  I am 321 pounds.  (Ewww...did I just say that out loud?)  I recently saw my doctor and nutritionist for a full evaluation.  Since I was 14 years old, I was diagnosed with an underactive Thyroid.  So that alone is like a wall to climb when it comes to losing weight.   I am not diabetic and my blood pressure and cholesterol are doing OK.  My doctor couldn't understand that......she said girls alot younger and skinnier me have higher blood pressure than I do.  That made me feel good.....not for their sake but mine.  I equate that to laughing all the time.  There would be alot less blood pressure medications if y'all would just laugh more!  Obviously my age and weight are a concern.....medically, personally, and though my Gorgeous loves me......I know he is worried about me too.

 So here we are.........two weeks since I've started my healthy journey/new way of looking at food.  I must say......time seems to stand absolutely still when you don't get to eat all you want when you want.  Tomorrow will be 2 weeks since I had any form of soda (pop, coke, cola, what have you) and so far that has proven to be my Everest.  It's around me all day, every day.........calling to me.  Its sugary, carbonated, ice cold deliciousness taunts me all            day            long.      But...I have resisted.....thank you Jesus!  My nutritionist has me on a meal plan similar to the Atkins diet.  So I have been munching on veggies around the clock and eating as much chicken as I can afford.  Life is kind of crazy right now so I haven't ventured out to making dinners again......just small portions to eat.  I love to cook and I havent figured out how to cook healthy yet.  I hit the gym about 2-3 times a week........although I need to bump that up to 4-5 times.  I will be getting a personal trainer in the next few weeks....and I could not be more terrified.  I am probably one of the cheapest people you'll ever meet...so paying for that is almost as scary as actually doing the work. 

        But everything worth anything in this life, is never easy. WHICH I HATE.   So as I continue on my journey, blogging it for the world to see........I am eager for this change.  I am awaiting the day I can look in the mirror and not immediately say "GROSS"  Cuz I do do that.  Actually I avoid mirrors as much as possible.  I look forward to carrying my babies in my belly and actually being healthy.  I look forward to seeing that gleam in my Gorgeous's eyes when he is proud of me and thinks I am smoking hot!  (Well more than I already am.  LOL JK)  The list goes on and on but these are on my top right now. 

So....here we go.......week 3 and full throttle. 

*BOOM*